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i'm tired, i feel like puking, back from another day's of mj, tt started off from early in the morning, been a huge big mouth, sorry.. didn't mean to, been losing tons of cash and spending shit on cap fares to thomson and back too.. sucks bah, i dun mind losing for mj, but cab fare?? absolutely stinks, i've been seeing orange notes disappearing day by day.. yup... cny started off more than a wk ago, and idiots who owe me cash, insist tt the cash is alr transfered, it's not gd to owe pple money during cny ya know?? bad...
i'm tired, tired out, from the extreme worse than ever night life i've been so used to, due to be acursed insomnia which i can remember since far back from 8 yrs old, even wkdays seem like wkends to me, which kinda sucks.
not lking forward to anything now, everything kinda seem bland to me, the last time i was ever lking forward to anything at all, was paul van dyk, and to no fault of the man himself, it freaking sucked, big time... i dun even lk forward to my stupid bed when i'm so in need of sleep, i dun like sleeping, it feels weird, where hrs of your life just disappear lidat, on a motionless thing, just concussed out there. seems liek u're dead, tt seemed alil too morbid.. blah.
i'm tired and exams are coming soon, i donot have the abilty and stamina to study for it, no mindset to, and i alr fucked up my application to uk big time. i'm sad, i donot know why, maybe cos things are stagnant right now?? or maybe cos i've been too happy, deliriously happy for the past few mths, which just brings the whole world to a standstill suddenly, one can nv be too happy, it's weird, or maybe i'm weird. maybe, just maybe.
i'm happy tt cheryl misses me, and i do too,very much,we just have diff thing now aiz, me and my mj, and perhaps the stupid distance btn us, and my stupid nights out, tt render me too tired to go down and see u and gracie baby. btw the miss u much much was from tim, i donot type tt much. hi tim, i know u're a loyal supporter of the blog, happy to be able to spend more time with u recently, due to "unforseen circumstances" and a guy called russell...
i..i...i.... dunnoe, there's smtg wrong with me right now, or maybe it had alws been. and i dun like it, not one bit. not a single bit.
i think the perfect remedy to all these, is maybe a really gd fantasy bk. yeah, hitting the bkshops soon, been doing quite abit of bedside reading, heh, from abt 7 plus to ten plsu in the morning, before i sleep, and sadly not the guide bks.. shit. oh well. bahz...
i'm tired, and confused.
